Yup, I created this category about 1 month ago and this is the second post, really lame on me ...
Today is start of summer vacation so I decided to go home early (and also because the last shuttle bus is 7pm !!!), so I went home, laying reading manga ... then I called my mom, I really worry about my parents cause now they need to live with my elder brother and his temper is really unstable ... sometimes he just keeps commanding my parents to give him money to buy house as if he has ever given them money (yes, he is 38 and he just keeps taking money from my parents, what a lame/useless/hopeless bastard ... )
well, i'm a bit too far ... but ... ok, change topic: rmb this morning when I wrote the previous blog, I said that I'm gonna forget about her, but then in the afternoon I met her, we have some awkward chit chat (it's really awkward ...), I did look at her and she did look at me ... I kinda feel like she feels sympathy for me and somehow I feel the hope again, but then I rmb that I know her quite well and also it's just hopeless ... then I spoke to myself "whatever" ...
I also rmb a quote my friend told me "Love is push and pull" - when u want to come to love, it pushes u away, when u want to forget about it, it will pull u back ... it's kinda right, isn't it :D?
Recently (about 3months), I've been watching "How I met your mother" (HIMYM) TV series, it's about a group of friends reaching 30 hanging out together ... there's a lot of stories in there, and somehow it did teach me some meaningful lessons ...
Sometimes, I ask myself "what do u see yourself in five years?", actually I don't know but I see my friends (in the group), one of them will unite with his wife, the other two will be couple (sighhh) and only me left ... and I feel really uneasy about that ... it's most likely true ... but will I just stand and watch? ... i guess just let it be ...
Well, that's it, it's not kinda a rant anyway ... but i just put it that way ...
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