Waiting for BTC to evans lodge to take my friend to thomson medical centre for check up, it rains quite heavily, but I like it since lately there's no rain
Recently there's so many things happen that I just feel overwhelmed, I cannot judge my emotion, it's a mix of anger, upset, disappointment and regretting ... I dunno what to do and how to handle myself, just feel so empty
Currently, I'm playing a part of close friend, helping my friend take care of herself. But seeing her preparing for her wedding, I just feel so left alone, I can't help but giving a sigh.
She will come back in the next 2weeks, after that I don't think I will have chances to see her again ... It's just like the last moment, haizz ...
Her husband seems to be a nice person, but the fact that I don't like him, yes, how can I like him since to me he always acts like a stalker and his eyes look so creepy.
But I have a feeling that he loves her a lot. Even though the way he acts at first seems to be irresponsible but since he has no experience it should be understandable. Now they're so happy preparing for their wedding: where to hold parties, where to take photos, who should they invite for wedding party, which day is good for that ... sometimes it hurts my chest.
Sometimes I wonder as I play part of a husband for now, will I ever be a real husband? I have a strong feeling that I will never be ... Haizz ... Nvm I might just live with my parents lah ...
Remember when she told me preparing for wedding needs to be taken care of half a year in advance of wedding, but now she only has less than 3weeks, and everything goes smoothly makes me kinda jealous
It's good to get married when your love is beautiful. It seems right and I hope she will always be happy and her husband will always be nice to her as what she always tells me ...
The rain just stopped and I see some sunlight, "the sun will follow the rain" ... That's what I always tell her, now I just need to persuade myself ...
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