16.4 one more week to go

16.4 one more week to go

0.22am "one more week to go" that's what I just heard from a guy in my house.

Yes one week just passed and I can do nothing for my research, I feel really upset about that but I cannot concentrate on my work, I feel really stressful and down, I plan to go back to Vietnam next week to calm myself down.

But I just really can't face it even though I don't have any other choices. Always feel like something press on my chest, ah shitty I just can never imagine what kind of person is her husband, even though what he said is true that "if I'm away, it's ok for him and her that he got her from me", but I wonder when he said so where's his dignity, sometimes I just can't accept that I lost my love to that kind of person. But I need to accept one thing he looks cooler/taller than me, he can play guitar and sing which makes her fall for him. But still it doesn't judge his characteristic.

Maybe I need to see my parents, my niece and nephew to have a better feeling.

Really really sad ...