Just went back from watching "FastFive", an interesting movie but so unrealistic ... Yep that's why they call it movie ...
Today, I didn't contact her and of course she didn't, while she's happy with her family and husband, I still need to deal with her trouble here. Just borrow small trolley (xe day) from my friend to take her left over in her room, and finish the check out for her ... so shit ... Life is so unfair and I dunno why I have to do all of this ... she's the one betraying me ... her husband is the one who stole her from me and always look down on me with his disgusting eyes ... and now I have to do all of their stuffs ... And until now without any thanks from them ... Only her mother sent me a thank via her ... When I heard she said so, I suddenly want to cry ... haizz ... only her mother can see a bit of what I've been through now ...
Today my lab is a bit full, I somehow feel the feeling that I used to before she came here ... She came here and ruined everything of mine and her husband just see and laugh at me ... Somehow I wish I can be an a$$hole without dignity like him so that I wouldn't be like that ...
Still feel so down ... No matter what I do she always thinks I'm the one who made it, and she never appreciates what I did ... she just got from me just like I'm their servant ... while i'm in deep down shjt, what she cares is only her husband ... I just got 50$ for this month and thank to her i'm in deep debt which requires me 2months in order to fully pay back ... everyday i'm just filled with anger, sorrow, regret, empty ... I just still so nothing dunno what to do ... and probably that's what they want ... I still can see them happily walk away and laugh at me while saying to me "that's what you deserve cause you are our servant" .... ahhhhh ...
So shjt, but there's still something that I and she planned before, and now I will fullfill it ...
... why it's so unfair to me ...
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