Yo, again I supposed to write this blog 2 days ago, I somehow didn't remember what I did in Sunday ... I guess I was preparing for Monday-report ...
I just back from the movie, not in the good mood so decided to write this blog ... First let's see what have I done regarding to last week plan ... well for the first task I completed it but somehow I cannot apply for my problem (it gave terrible result ...), for the second task ... uhm I completely forgot ... shjt ... will try to do it tmr afternoon ...
... Last Saturday, we went to the hotpot buffer, it's kinda reminding me about the hotpot in West Coast Plaza where the pot has two separate regions (my bad English) with 2 kinds of soup: spicy and non-spicy ... we did eat a lot, I ate most ... It's kinda fun actually, but thinking of it somehow I feel the feeling I have today ...
How should I put it? Recently, I join a group and we usually hang out on weekend for food and on Tuesday for movie (yes it's today), and in the group I kinda have a crush on a girl, she's cute and lovely, I always love her smile, it's kinda make me feel relief ... but the point is that she seems to like a guy (not me) in our group, they always talk separately, somehow I wonder what the hell that they keep talking so much ... Sometimes, there are two of us (me and the girl), but I really don't know what to say, all the things I prepare in mind to talk to her suddenly disappear and all it left is the completely awkward silence ... And I just tend to talk with the other guy (the other guy beside me and the guy that the girl talks to ... wth) and she tends to talk with the other guy (the guy she seems to like) ...
I bought a new camera, I planned to show her and ask if she needs for her coming trip ... but today she told me that she just borrowed the camera from that guy ... oh god, it's kinda hard to explain my feeling at that time ... and later I kinda lost my temper a bit ... So during the movie I feel kinda sad, but luckily the movie is not bad ...
So what I plan to do next ... maybe just sit and watch ... shjt, I feel useless again, I want to do something but I just feel no confident about myself, bitch why I always like that even though I have tried ...
Ahh, I'm just very serious about studying Mandarin, today I spent about 1.5hours in the library, I found it kinda interesting and also very tough ... But I will try my best, everything needs a plan, and I already have a plan for it. hopefully I can make it this time ...
Well, now time for next week:
- Firstly, seems like my boss does not like the skew with simultaneously skew-estimate, I guess I will drop it for now ...
- Second, I will continue the recursive, hopefully the idea from last week will help me ...
- Thirdly, well ... I have no idea ... um, really no idea ...
So just like that, we will have a barbecue this weekend, don't know what I feel after that then ... but I guess just let it be ...
Regards then,
jose
P/S: somehow feel better, yup, friendship for the win ...
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